It has been a really tough day. In my last post I stated that I would be ok to walk away from my job...Well I wanted to be able to walk away by my choice. Today I was told to pack my desk and go home. The hospital has been really struggling. Today was a sad day for many people who have given a lot of years to the hospital. I don't know the total number that were laid off, but I think it was at least 20-30. I don't know how to feel. I have been there for 10 years. I liked what I did. I was good at what I did. The people were my family. I can't imagine not being there.
After crying uncontrollably for a couple of hours, I was able to compose myself (somewhat) and focus on the bigger picture of life - God.
God is good. He is in control. He has been working on my heart the last couple of days. I think that was in preparation for today.
I am really trying to focus on God right now. I am trying to really learn and believe that God is all I need that he truly will satisfy my deepest needs. I don't need anything else...The other stuff in life is all a bonus.
I am trying to rest in Him and find peace.
Please continue to pray for us. We obviously have some huge changes facing us.
I want to be open and willing to go and do whatever He is calling us to.