Friday, June 02, 2006

Mom no longer social worker

It has been a really tough day. In my last post I stated that I would be ok to walk away from my job...Well I wanted to be able to walk away by my choice. Today I was told to pack my desk and go home. The hospital has been really struggling. Today was a sad day for many people who have given a lot of years to the hospital. I don't know the total number that were laid off, but I think it was at least 20-30. I don't know how to feel. I have been there for 10 years. I liked what I did. I was good at what I did. The people were my family. I can't imagine not being there.
After crying uncontrollably for a couple of hours, I was able to compose myself (somewhat) and focus on the bigger picture of life - God.
God is good. He is in control. He has been working on my heart the last couple of days. I think that was in preparation for today.
I am really trying to focus on God right now. I am trying to really learn and believe that God is all I need that he truly will satisfy my deepest needs. I don't need anything else...The other stuff in life is all a bonus.
I am trying to rest in Him and find peace.
Please continue to pray for us. We obviously have some huge changes facing us.
I want to be open and willing to go and do whatever He is calling us to.


Anonymous said...

Hi Amy, My heart is so deep for you and Paul and the little ones right now. Wake up each day and listen to what God has instore and follow his lead. I love you all so much. You are blessed to have family that will stand beside you as this will bring a new door to you life that will open with new challenges and rewards, that what God has waiting. Just keep listening.Same for Paul to.

Anonymous said...

Amy, I can not tell you how much Friday hurt. Watching my friends, esp. you, have to go through sooo much pain, pack your things and leave. I felt so empty. But even when you said you were ok, I knew the truth. Yes, I firmly believe God will open other doors for you and Paul, but still, the here and now is painfull. I just need you to know that I love you and am here for whatever you need. Robin

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ilovekittiecats said...

so sorry to hear about this difficult change.

have you ever noticed when you cling to God the most? For some, it is in the good times. For others, it is in the difficult. I am one who clings more and can see God more clearly in difficult times. I guess that means i will continue to be blessed by them.

you have the right attitude, just hang on to Him...i have a feeling He IS working all things together for your good.