long time no journal

OK, it has only been 5 months since my last journal....no big deal. A lot has happened since then. My precious baby boy was born. Harrison Michael is the new love in my life. He is 3 months old this week. I can't believe how fast time flies. It has been so great since he was born. It has been nice to be home with the kids and enjoy doing nothing. (nothing except: take care of kids: feed,diaper,wipe bottoms,play parade,feed,diaper,watch bob and larry,rock in chair,tea parties,feed again, cook, clean, laundry etc.etc...) My time is starting to get closer to when I have to go back to work. I have mixed feelings about it. I know it will be ok, but I am dreading leaving Harrison. I felt the same way before I left Julia. I think it is because I am used to being with him 24 hours a day attached to me at least every three hours, it will be hard to imagine him not being with me. I love that little guy so much. I never imagined loving another baby. But boy has he wrapped himself around my heart. Julia loves him to. She is such a good big sister. She has done so much better than I imagined. I can't wait to see them be able to play together. I guess that won't be for awhile. Julia and I tried to make angel ornaments today I don't know how well they will turn out. She enjoyed the glue and glitter anyway. We will probably find glitter for a long time. My life doesn't sound very interesting right now. I just thought I better journal something since it had been so long. There just doesn't seem to be enough time in the the day to sit down and think...especially not to sit and write about what I think! I have a few minutes before Julia gets up from her nap. Well, hopefully it won't be another 5 months before I sit down again! HA... I will probably have time again once I go back to work. I am looking forward to having brain stimulation again. I feel like my brain has been on vacation. I actually had an hour conversation today about "important" adult things. I was talking to a friend about her church and their leadership team. It made me stir again about leadership. I wish there was the perfect church out there. If everyone would just think like me...it would be!!! JUST KIDDING. Well, me time is about over. I need to go wake Julia up so she can go to bed tonight and figure out what's for dinner...the never ending question.

monday

It's Monday. My day to be home. I have been trying to clean and give the dog a bath and haircut. Very exciting. I have a sinus infection so I feel pretty lousy. The weekend was too short. But I am counting the days till we go to the beach. I need some relaxation. Julia was so precious yesterday. The kids at church sang songs at the end of the service. Julia wiggled her way away from Paul to run up on the stage with the other kids. She got right in the middle of them and tried to sing and dance with them. It was definitely a moment I will cherish forever. She was so cute and thought she was a big girl. The other kids didn't mind one bit. Some of the girls that know her were helping her dance and do the motions. As a parent it was a shining moment. I try to relate those moments with how God feels about me. How He gets so excited to see us leap out on faith and serve Him. I sometimes struggle to understand God's immense love for us. I know how much I love Julia and can't even imagine that God loves me so much more than that. I wish I could comprehend it.

AHHHH

Sometimes work is so frustrating. I feel like I am pretty good at my job. I care about people and try to help them and in the mean time have to live within the laws and policies that are set up. It frustrates me when other people do not understand the law and get mad at me for enforcing them. I know this probably makes no since to anyone else...but I just need to vent right now. I sure hope this day goes fast and I don't get in trouble. I am so ready for vacation!

Memorial Day

We went to the movies! We had such a good day. We took Julia to her first movie. She loved it. I think Paul and I liked it more. It was fun to see her experience the theater and the pop corn. She looked so big sitting in there. It was a really fun time. A great memory!

Just Workin

I am just sitting here at work. Not much going on today. It is days like these that I feel like I am wasting time. I can think of a million other things I could be doing. I would really like to be home with Paul and Julia. In the mean time I sit and stare at their pictures. Mr. Tyler is very active today. He is bouncing all around in my belly. It is so funny. I wonder what he is thinking and feeling. It is so hard to imagine him being in this world. I am nervous about having another baby. I know it will be good, but I am scared that I won't be able to handle it. I try to be a good mom, and I know I am too hard on myself. I know I cannot be perfect....but I would sure like to be!