Friday, February 06, 2009

Life

I wanted to post just for the fact that I haven't posted in a month.
Update- The Barbies are now gone. Julia agreed to put them away only if she could have them back when she was 13. Hopefully by then she won't be into Barbie.

Life has been stressful lately to say the least.
I know much of it I put on myself. As my counselor says I was born and the cap that was put on my head says "fixer." My hard drive does read that way. I feel the need to fix everything. I also have others who put the expectation on me to fix everything. Yet I am stuck because I also have this line that runs in me that says "I can't fix a thing!" Not to mention when I do try to fix things, I MUST be Perfect doing it!
So I live in constant stress.
Well, I am tired of stress. I am tired of living between these two lines.
I want to rewire my thinking. I want to be able to just let it go.
It is easier said than done.
I have been living with this script for 34 years. How do you just be different?
I have really been pondering this.
I know it takes time and energy and work. Again, I am trying to fix it.
I don't know how to do anything else.
I don't know what life looks like without these expectations.
I am thankful for the revelation. It is at least a start on my journey.

3 comments:

amy said...

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amy said...

Thanks for sharing your blog address with me. I have enjoyed reading many of your posts and looking at your photos! Incredible!

Anonymous said...

"Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find REST for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

"I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me will never thirst."

"If anyone thirsts , let him come to me and drink.

I love you, and I will pray!