Tonight I have been thinking about some things in life. Mostly good things, but also some things I don't quite understand. I don't understand why some families endure so much pain and others have never had a single bad thing happen. Yet, this particular family I am thinking of at the moment, has held strong to the fact that God is good. Despite horrible, horrible tragedies that have happened in the last year, God is good. He is Lord of their life and he is sovereign and he is good. Man, I want that kind of faith, that kind of passion that keeps driving me everyday. Sometimes it is easy to see and sometimes, it is so difficult. I know that it is normal. I am sure this family has had their days. But ultimately I want to never get to the point of despair. I want to be able to recognize God's goodness in every situation.
I also am feeling right now this longing for something more in my life. Not a job or stuff. But I desire for Paul and I a ministry. Something that we are doing together for God. I want us to be serving in some capacity. Something big. Not just kids ministry at church - although, I know that is a start. But I want something big, something life changing. I don't know what that is right now, but I am praying that God will move big in our life, and prepare us for what is coming.