monday

It's Monday. My day to be home. I have been trying to clean and give the dog a bath and haircut. Very exciting. I have a sinus infection so I feel pretty lousy. The weekend was too short. But I am counting the days till we go to the beach. I need some relaxation. Julia was so precious yesterday. The kids at church sang songs at the end of the service. Julia wiggled her way away from Paul to run up on the stage with the other kids. She got right in the middle of them and tried to sing and dance with them. It was definitely a moment I will cherish forever. She was so cute and thought she was a big girl. The other kids didn't mind one bit. Some of the girls that know her were helping her dance and do the motions. As a parent it was a shining moment. I try to relate those moments with how God feels about me. How He gets so excited to see us leap out on faith and serve Him. I sometimes struggle to understand God's immense love for us. I know how much I love Julia and can't even imagine that God loves me so much more than that. I wish I could comprehend it.

AHHHH

Sometimes work is so frustrating. I feel like I am pretty good at my job. I care about people and try to help them and in the mean time have to live within the laws and policies that are set up. It frustrates me when other people do not understand the law and get mad at me for enforcing them. I know this probably makes no since to anyone else...but I just need to vent right now. I sure hope this day goes fast and I don't get in trouble. I am so ready for vacation!

Memorial Day

We went to the movies! We had such a good day. We took Julia to her first movie. She loved it. I think Paul and I liked it more. It was fun to see her experience the theater and the pop corn. She looked so big sitting in there. It was a really fun time. A great memory!

Just Workin

I am just sitting here at work. Not much going on today. It is days like these that I feel like I am wasting time. I can think of a million other things I could be doing. I would really like to be home with Paul and Julia. In the mean time I sit and stare at their pictures. Mr. Tyler is very active today. He is bouncing all around in my belly. It is so funny. I wonder what he is thinking and feeling. It is so hard to imagine him being in this world. I am nervous about having another baby. I know it will be good, but I am scared that I won't be able to handle it. I try to be a good mom, and I know I am too hard on myself. I know I cannot be perfect....but I would sure like to be!